There’s a baby!
Joining our family — in March 2018!
It’s still a bit surreal. We’re having a baby. A little human life to snuggle and hold. And we couldn’t be more excited.
I just passed the 21-week mark – already halfway there. In these last 17 weeks since first seeing the two pink lines, baby has grown from the size of a tiny poppy seed to the size of a carrot. My growing bump finally looks more like a pregnant belly and less like I ate one too many burritos for dinner.
It all blows my mind.
20-Week Anatomy Scan
Last week we went to the doctor for our anatomy scan. To be honest, I was really nervous. The last time we saw baby at just 9 weeks, it looked like a little peanut – literally. This time we got an up-close look at its cute button nose and beating heart. Baby was kicking and wiggling around, sucking its thumb and trying to grab its toes. 😍
The doctor told us everything looks great, *sigh of relief*. Its heartbeat is strong at 150+ bpm, weighing in at 13 ounces which is impossibly cute. I left with a flu shot, a form to get a breast pump from my insurance company (which makes things all the more real), and an appointment for week 24 at the end of the month. Oh and one more tiny little thing – an envelope with the baby’s gender inside. Eep! We find out this weekend whether we’re having a little boy or girl. ❤️
How We Found Out
We’re so excited, and still a little stunned, to have a healthy baby on the way. It’s hard to fathom that there’s a little head and arms and toes in there that will soon fit into all those adorable onesies and footie pajamas I’ve been swooning over.
The morning we found out, neither of us quite believed it. I’d decided on a whim when I sat up wide awake at 5 a.m. on a Monday to take one of those super cheap strip tests you get off the internet for like 50 cents each. I set it on my nightstand and crawled back under the covers, afraid to look when my phone’s timer went off. When I finally did look, I saw a faint second line. Faint, but there.
To make sure it wasn’t a fluke test, I ran and took another one which confirmed that we were actually pregnant!
Kristian still couldn’t believe it. Over the next few days, I took a couple more tests and watched that second line get darker and darker. After a week, it really sunk in. I called the doctor and made our first appointment. Waiting those 5 weeks between finding out and our first scan to confirm the pregnancy was agony. Each day felt like a week.
I haven’t shared this publicly yet, and it makes my heart flip a little bit to tell you now… We were pregnant once before. We lost that sweet baby at 12 weeks. Going through that miscarriage was the hardest thing I’ve ever done, and when I found out six months later about this pregnancy, I was hesitant to get my hopes up.
I kept setting milestones in my mind. Once I see the baby’s heartbeat at my first scan, it’ll feel real… After I make it to the second trimester and baby’s still going strong, I’ll feel better… If baby’s still doing great at my 17-week appointment, I’ll let myself feel excited.
Now that I’ve seen baby with my own eyes and I feel him or her moving every day, I’m finally breathing a little easier, and the excitement and anticipation are growing. I’m looking forward to sharing it with you all as I take us in what I hope to be a fun new direction on this blog.
March can’t come soon enough. ❤️